I’ve thrown around the phrase “my public journey of self-discovery” a few times since beginning this blog. I want to expand on what I mean and why I’m doing it.
On the day of my 24th birthday I decided that I would blog daily for the next 30 days. Not too long before my birthday I made a series of life-changing decisions. All of this lead to me having an almost-quarter-life crisis. I realized that I don’t know what I want from life. Which is fine, but I want to figure out what it is that I want.
I figure that I need to figure out some of the basics first.
- What are my values?
- Why do I value them?
- How do they affect my decisions?
I have an endless list of questions running around in my head. I’ll make a post listing them all so I can answer them eventually. That lead me to deciding to write about myself. About my decisions. This is an attempt to figure out my values and desires.
I want the readers of my blog to feel comfortable reaching out with stories of their own journeys. I live in a world rich with experiences, and learning about those experiences helps me to understand myself. That also has the added effect of feeding my extroverted desire to engage in deeper relationships with people around me.
This is also an attempt to be okay with vulnerability and discomfort. I love making myself uncomfortable. It’s my favorite way to induce fast-paced growth.
The issue with public blogging is that I am finding myself writing for an audience and not for the sake of self-discovery. It’s a little nerve-wracking to know that anyone can find and read this, so wanting to censor myself comes naturally. I’m going to do my best to be acutely aware when I’m doing either of those things.