I need to re-calibrate my vision. What do I want from life?
Two 5-letter words that send our introspective selves into shatters and send our defenses up. One is healthy, one is not. One accepts fault and is able to move past it. One causes us to be reduced to the fault.
Circumstance forced me into a corner for the first two decades of my life. I was born female, into a family from Iran. I am the older sister of two younger brothers. I picked up my father’s stubborn-headedness.
I grew up in a world that my parents tried to protect me from. When I look back on their parenting, I’m not mad or bitter. No one is given a manual on parenting in a country with a culture they are unfamiliar with. But their lack of expertise and tough love tactics pushed me into the world where I had support myself.
Success isn’t something that falls into your lap. Proficiency doesn’t just happen. Happiness isn’t a flower that sprouts without tending to. Every hour you spend doing something that doesn’t make you happy, enrich your life, or help you grow is an hour that’s wasted. It’s a hard truth to swallow.